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Learning to Rest

One of the things that makes me happiest about this summer is that my children have finally started to sleep in. Cooper will sleep until 10am sometimes and Baby Wynn got out of bed, sleepy faced and happy, this morning at 7:30am.

I think they sleep in because I sleep in. And because they know there is nothing going on at my house that they're going to miss. We spend a lot of unstructured time together, puttering around the house, watching television and drawing, cooking some food and doing a chore here and there. There are frequently no plans, and their temperaments are starting to get used to that pace, and I think it's good for them to be that way. Bored and indolent, even.

One of the greatest gifts I hope to give my children is the ability to rest, to pause, to stop and take some time, because in those moments, we really get a sense of what we are yearning to do or to be.

We can hear our own hearts in the quiet.

But as you know, it is an uphill battle: we overschedule, overplan, overcommit.  I'm working on this for myself, and the thing that keeps me motivated is that I'm not doing it for myself alone, I'm teaching my children the self-care that lies in the pause.


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